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Monday, December 30, 2013

再忍忍活多两天吧叶依姗

我知道你真的很痛

但就给自己多两天的时间吧

过了这两天

不会再看到讨厌的东西

不会在听到别人骂你

不会在看到让自己心痛的事情

叶依姗

你决定了就别害怕

这世上已经没有什么事情值得你活下去

已经没任何事让你想活下去

压力

烦恼

痛苦

那么多年都够了

再见了 我爱的人 

jules yeo wee how 杨伟豪

我还是想和你说句 

别伤心

就算我知道你不会因为我离开而伤心

Saturday, December 28, 2013

现在开始烦读书的事了
不懂要进政府还是私人的好?
没人商量
怎么办?
我什么都不懂!

怎么办

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

merry christmas my beloved hubby!
do you remember you told me that,
i call you hubby,dear but i nt mean it..

btw u're wrong
i wont't be with you if i am nt ready to step in your world
sometimes i doesn't show to you but i think u can feel it with your heart
but maybe we are not supposed to be together as u told me last time
u tell i am greedy 
but i am not really greedy
maybe u not really know me but u told u know me very much

whatever it is nothing importnat anymore and all i hope just u get a bright future
and find a girl u wan to protect and take care of 
and u're having responsibilities
that's all

i am always okay
u know me well as u said
i will make myself more tough :)

before i met you i am also a single person
and i can take care of myself and handle everything
so you have no more responsibility

u always say u dun believe me 
its hurt u know
i dun even say this to them in front of them
 yeah u did it great!

seriously when i be with u
my anger and sadness are more than happiness
do u believe?
movie will always have an ending which is only two type
and mine also a movie because sometimes i also need to act in front of u
and yes it is the end!!!

you're freedom 
me too

thanks for take care of me while i am sick and thats warm me
even my parents also didnt care me like that
even the day be with you were too short its about 16months 
but i think if this is good relation and it is enough 
i dun ask much

thank you man 
i will always love you
hubby ♥

Sunday, December 22, 2013

叶依姗!

叶依姗!!
够了!!
你要这样到什么时候!!
你那么痛苦都没人会可怜你!
他根本不在乎你心痛不痛!!
他根本不在乎你流了多少泪!
他根本都不知道!!
你需要为了一个男生而把自己弄成这样吗!!

你因为和第一个男朋友分手而哭了三个月!
这次连哭也哭不出!!
真的那么痛吗!!
叶依姗你的心真的那么痛吗!!
难道你就不能大方点!!!
他都做到这样了你还需要继续这样下去吗!!

他可以很开心的做他喜欢的事情!
为什么你就不能!!
为什么你就要做你不想做的事!!
那又何苦呢!!

你需要多久时间!!
你到底需要多久时间!!
人家不到一个星期就把你忘得一干二净了!!
人家已经不记得曾经和你发生过的事情!!
为什么你就不能学学人家!!
难道你不觉得痛苦吗!!
你要把自己弄成什么样子你才甘愿!!

只有在这边写日记才能流泪!
不然真的流不出泪!!
叶依姗,何苦呢!!!

叶依姗! 
给自己到年尾吧!
新的一年别再记得这个人了好不好!
别再为他流泪了好不好!!
别再做傻事了好不好!!
别再痛了好不好!!
看开点好不好!!

人生中总会发生你预料不到的事情!!
要是没起起落落那就是死人了!!

一个不爱你的人
一个丢下你的人
一个不回头看看你的人
一个不会为你伤心的人
一个不会在乎你的人
一个不关心你的人
一个没把你当一回事的人
一个当你是陌生人的人
值得你那样傻吗???????????

Saturday, December 21, 2013

if we didn't start last time
maybe nowadays we still can be a close friend or something else but not stranger
you know how was my feeling after we break up?
you know i keep changing myself and i dunwan to be the past tense me?

u dun ever know how strong i am to be couple with you last time
i said i dun think to break up and i will do it

i can't accept the way you treat me now and it's hurt to heart
how deep this hurt me and u dun ever know it
i didn't blame you or say anything of you

however i still very down and hurt to heart
u know how much u show me when u chase me
u know that all were so touch
and it's extremely different of what you told me before
i hate you! 
i won't keep you in my mind if i can!
if i can
if i can
if i can
if i can
if i can
if i can

you are not a man of your word 
u told me you will love me even i did something u can't accept
it touch me and you say u will more regret if u lose me
how come it happen like now
i can't really accept

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

回忆 永远都是好的
不好的都不记得

回忆 永远不会改变
即使 
人 已经变了

我真的那么失败吗

为什么不回头看看我一眼?

你真的觉得我是如此的坚强吗?


Monday, December 16, 2013

我快要失去自我了
我快顶不住了
谁能帮我
谁能救我
我真的累了

Saturday, December 14, 2013

最熟悉的陌生人

原来一个人可以变得那么的陌生
原来一个人可以变得那么的残忍
我真的突然觉得
我在这年多里
不懂跟一个怎样的人在一起
我真的……傻了!

到底你是一个怎样的人?
我怎么一点都不了解你?

Sunday, December 08, 2013

sorry i am not yet prepare to .... 
pls give me some more time.. 
when i am ready i will done all the things i promise to you..

pls gv me some more time to accept..
i already try my best!
sorry!

Friday, December 06, 2013

我真没用
我没勇气说声 生日快乐
我只是发了那个视频给你
我竟然 哭了
哭了好久
我不懂到底自己在哭什么

07.12.2013

sorry that i can't keep my promise to give u a memorable and unforgettable 21st b'day!
i am so sorry!

all the gift i prepared just can keep it by myself and it won't be with you!

i still crying everyday!
even after work i am so tired but i won't forget to think of u and my tears...
i know i mean nothing for u even a friend...
i know u don't even think of me
i know u won't hurt to heart anymore
i know break up is doesn't matter for you
i know u're happier than the time u be with me

just i feel i am very stupid bcos of the msg u send to me in the past!
and it hurts me!
i looks like a silly girl which believe all with my heart..
i never betray you but what i get back is just broken heart!

we can't make our trip after CNY 
we can't keep our promise to each other

u still remember got a day when we phone call and i didn't say a word but i sms for u?
then u send back the same msg for about 7 times

u asked : you don't me anymore am i correct? 

the things u duno is my feeling after saw the msg!
it's hurt!
don't you know if a girl don't love u anymore, 
will she care about u?
will she sad about u?
will she angry about u?

要是我不爱你,你根本不会影响我的心情!
但是你不懂!

对不起!
我宁愿自己一个人躲在房间哭,
我也不想再让你听见,
我不想再出现在你面前!
因为你说我很烦!

没关系的!
爱与不爱,都需要勇气!
只是,
我没有勇气不爱!

你别记得我!
请你忘记我!
别让我在你心里还有那么一点点的位子!

one last thing i beg u,
please forget me !
don't even remember me once a time!
please don't!
please treat me like a stranger!
i just wish....
i won't stay in your memory!

but it won't happen to me!
maybe u think i'm still the same like the past which i can do anything for a boy!
but......
u don't even know me well..


Thursday, December 05, 2013

我的胸部
不懂怎么多了很多条线
凹进去的

很怕
不懂什么来
有谁可以救我
我们一直都是两个世界的人
根本不应该开始

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

很好!
你骂我!
你打我!

我不会在当你是我爸爸!
很多年前我就不当你是了!

现在这次
我不会忘记!!!

Sunday, December 01, 2013

我真的累了!
真的很累很累!
23年都是这样!
整天都是这样吵!
我真的很讨厌这里!
已经没有任何推动力了!

我本来什么都没有,
后来有了你,
现在又回到从前!

你说不会发生的都发生了!
我恨你!
我很我自己!
我更恨我的命! 
没有什么值得我去努力!

我真的累了!
23年了,
忍了23年了,
一切都够了!

明天开始都要自己驾车做工,自己家车回家!
很危险,我很怕!
但是没有人会担心,没人会保护我!
我真的厌倦了这样的生活!
我讨厌这个家!